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♥ Date: Monday, December 26, 2011
MERRY CHRISTMAS BLOG THAT HARDLY ANYBODY READS!
So basically, Christmas sucked ass this year.
Why do i even anticipate it in the first place anyway?
Sure, some time with the family, friends and maybe the boyfriend, sounds fine and dandy.
All year round, i wanted it to be perfect.
When it's finally here, and if it falls below perfect,
things seem to take a different direction.
I'm not hating on Christmas cos it's baby jesus' birthday.
Just saying that maybe i shouldn't have such high expectations of it.
Another thing that I've learnt this holiday is that,
maybe i have too much time on my hands these days,
that it has turned me into some kind of obsessive girlfriend.
Maybe i need to take step back and focus on being with myself for a change.
I'm too co-dependent for my own good.
It ain't healthy.
Why do i need other people to make me happy?
If i don't learn how to make myself happy, how is anyone supposed to do that for me?
Nobody really bothers if you're upset anyway.
It's being a burden to people.
They have better things to do.
Time to chin up and fight my own battles.
So yeah, through a bad experience, i've learned something.
Not bad.
On a side note:
I still love my boyfriend.
I'm sorry for being such a pain in the ass.
Thanks for dealing with this wreck.
Love you :)
So basically, Christmas sucked ass this year.
Why do i even anticipate it in the first place anyway?
Sure, some time with the family, friends and maybe the boyfriend, sounds fine and dandy.
All year round, i wanted it to be perfect.
When it's finally here, and if it falls below perfect,
things seem to take a different direction.
I'm not hating on Christmas cos it's baby jesus' birthday.
Just saying that maybe i shouldn't have such high expectations of it.
Another thing that I've learnt this holiday is that,
maybe i have too much time on my hands these days,
that it has turned me into some kind of obsessive girlfriend.
Maybe i need to take step back and focus on being with myself for a change.
I'm too co-dependent for my own good.
It ain't healthy.
Why do i need other people to make me happy?
If i don't learn how to make myself happy, how is anyone supposed to do that for me?
Nobody really bothers if you're upset anyway.
It's being a burden to people.
They have better things to do.
Time to chin up and fight my own battles.
So yeah, through a bad experience, i've learned something.
Not bad.
On a side note:
I still love my boyfriend.
I'm sorry for being such a pain in the ass.
Thanks for dealing with this wreck.
Love you :)
♥ Date: Sunday, December 11, 2011
Decided to resurrect my dead, dead blog.
For the past 3 months, nothing much changed, i supposed?
I'm still as busy as ever.
Juggling what needs to be juggled.
The thing about this year is, it's passing extremely fast.
When i was younger, i used to wait forever for Christmas to come.
At this age, it comes faster than speed racer.
I do what i do best at the end of the year,
reflect about life, like an old grandmother on a rocking chair.
I'm very happy and very blissful with Sean.
I can proudly say that it is the most successful relationship that i had so far.
I love/hate that boy. Maybe more hate, but he makes it up for being adorable.
Relationship isn't a bed of roses, we do have our fights.
I'm just glad that we are able to solve them and still go back to normal after that.
Love you swine lord.
Kinda glad i met the friends i have in RP now.
Though i only known them for a few months,
they have been there for me in quite a few situations and occasions.
Heck, we have already been through some drama together.
Very good.
Even though i meet new people and all,
i still miss my old ones.
Especially Cecilia and Rima, they were my other soul mates.
I miss having them in the same class as me, going through shit in school together.
But now, ugh, i don't even get to see them and i hardly talk to them.
Miss them so badly.
And a final note: I wish Christmas would last all year long.
The carols, the food, the drinks, the decorations, the company.
I LOVE ALL OF IT!
MERRY CHRISTMAS ONE AND ALL!
For the past 3 months, nothing much changed, i supposed?
I'm still as busy as ever.
Juggling what needs to be juggled.
The thing about this year is, it's passing extremely fast.
When i was younger, i used to wait forever for Christmas to come.
At this age, it comes faster than speed racer.
I do what i do best at the end of the year,
reflect about life, like an old grandmother on a rocking chair.
I'm very happy and very blissful with Sean.
I can proudly say that it is the most successful relationship that i had so far.
I love/hate that boy. Maybe more hate, but he makes it up for being adorable.
Relationship isn't a bed of roses, we do have our fights.
I'm just glad that we are able to solve them and still go back to normal after that.
Love you swine lord.
Kinda glad i met the friends i have in RP now.
Though i only known them for a few months,
they have been there for me in quite a few situations and occasions.
Heck, we have already been through some drama together.
Very good.
Even though i meet new people and all,
i still miss my old ones.
Especially Cecilia and Rima, they were my other soul mates.
I miss having them in the same class as me, going through shit in school together.
But now, ugh, i don't even get to see them and i hardly talk to them.
Miss them so badly.
And a final note: I wish Christmas would last all year long.
The carols, the food, the drinks, the decorations, the company.
I LOVE ALL OF IT!
MERRY CHRISTMAS ONE AND ALL!
♥ Date: Wednesday, September 21, 2011
Boyfriend always hating on other people's blog.
Gets me worried about mine.
QUICK, SOMEBODY GIVE ME A CRASH COURSE ON HOW TO MAKE MY BLOG INTERESTING!
FASTER, FASTER!
He has a blog too.
His feels like a soccer forum, filled with updates about scores and players.
So, ALL SPURS FANS OUT THERE, FOR MORE UPDATES,
PLEASE LOG ONTO SPILLEDVENOM.WORDPRESS.COM
I'm so lame, it must be the night.
Things to look forward to/or not:
- 4 more days to my 11th month (which means, 1 month and 4 days to our first year!)
-14 more days to school reopening (look at the amount of fucks i give, whoops, no surprise... none!)
-2 more days to my UT results (don't know how to react to this actually)
-5 more days to the DCID camp (which i'm not going, cos i hate camps and i can't be bothered. [and Sean would say, "wah, rebel now ah?"] and i am.)
But this i know for sure, i still got eyes for you,
♥ Date:
Fucking annoyed with technology.
Well, at least for my school's technology.
"A paperless learning system"
Just shove a sock in it.
So what happens if my laptop crashed on me one fine day and i have to go to school the next day?
Am i supposed to borrow the laptop from the school till i buy a new laptop?
What if i'm poor?
The school's gonna buy one for me?
In my dreams i supposed?
Why can't it be like other normal schools?
Something more efficient and reliable like books?
Pen? paper? learning notes?
I bet by the end of their poly life,
My school students all suffer from myopia because of the constant use of the computer.
What pisses me off so much is that when i want tot get my laptop system fixed,
I have to go to the freaking IT help desk in school.
IN FUCKING WOODLANDS.
To go get it fixed.
I usually can get normal people to do it for me, but noooo,
I have to get fucking school people to help me out!
Dumbfucks.
♥ Date: Thursday, August 11, 2011
One thing that I've really got to learn about myself.
STOP WALLOWING IN SELF-PITY.
No one really cares when you're being pathetic.
So I might as well chin up and stiffen up that upper lip.
Cos, no one is gonna be there to fight my battles for me.
Sympathy doesn't make things easier.
♥ Date: Sunday, August 07, 2011
BALANCE
I find that my life depends on and revolves around this magical word.
24 hours in a day, 7 days in a week is simply not enough anymore.
I don't know how well I'm handling things.
Sure, i can stop working and continue feeding off of my parents or
my adamant boyfriend would want to attempt to support me,
but i guess I'm too independent to do so.
So I'm juggling, work, school, boyfriend, family, KC friends, RP friends, MDIS friends...
Somebody give me a fucking medal already.
Even so, i still feel like,
i have not accomplished enough.
I don't know.
Dear god,
cut me some slack why don't you?
I'll be good from now on.
I find that my life depends on and revolves around this magical word.
24 hours in a day, 7 days in a week is simply not enough anymore.
I don't know how well I'm handling things.
Sure, i can stop working and continue feeding off of my parents or
my adamant boyfriend would want to attempt to support me,
but i guess I'm too independent to do so.
So I'm juggling, work, school, boyfriend, family, KC friends, RP friends, MDIS friends...
Somebody give me a fucking medal already.
Even so, i still feel like,
i have not accomplished enough.
I don't know.
Dear god,
cut me some slack why don't you?
I'll be good from now on.
♥ Date:
All i can say is,
WHY GABEY BABY?! WHY?!
Then again, Sean Yeo Zhenyu is so damn happy that my hopes of marrying Gabe are dashed.
HAPPY NOW? I ADMIT DEFEAT.
Have to find a cure for this obsession.
My oh my.
You know you just got one life.
WHY GABEY BABY?! WHY?!
Then again, Sean Yeo Zhenyu is so damn happy that my hopes of marrying Gabe are dashed.
HAPPY NOW? I ADMIT DEFEAT.
Have to find a cure for this obsession.
My oh my.
You know you just got one life.
♥ Date: Sunday, July 03, 2011
NIGHT SHADES!COBRA STARSHIP'S NEW ALBUM.
MUST HAVE... MAJOR WANT... CAN'T MAINTAIN...
Which only means, more of my baby.
Okay second baby, before i get hell from Mr S.A.Tan himself.
But thennnn, my asshole classmate said he looks like this guy
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Ted mosby from How I Met Your Mother.HELL NOOOOOOO.
Burst my fucking bubble. Dang it.
PLEASE LAUNCH THE ALBUM ALREADY!
SHIVERING IN ANTICIPATION.
What i've been missing in my life, what i've been dreaming of. You'll be that guy.
♥ Date: Monday, May 09, 2011
Why is it that at the age of 19 I'm still treated like as though I'm only 9?
Why is that other people are allowed to travel with their friends and I can't cos it's deemed 'dangerous'?
The thing is, EVERYWHERE IS DANGEROUS!
Singapore is dangerous too.
You people care for my safety, okay, fair enough.
Does this mean that parents that allow their child to travel overseas with their friends don't care about their safety?
I'm pretty sure that I'll allow my child to have a life when she turns 19.
Provided that she texts back to Singapore every few hours just so i know she's safe.
WHICH I AGREED TO DO, BUT YOU PEOPLE STILL GAVE ME NO LEEWAY.
So be it, I'll never be able to travel alone till I'm fucking married.
At least i had my grandma and auntie that agreed to let me go and is on my side about this.
I'm sorry, but I'm never gonna be able to agree with you people on this perspective.
Fuck this.